if shame had a face I think it would look like yours

Someone saves a wretch like me.

I talked to a special friend from yesterday night till this morning. 2.30am.

I told my friend a little secret of mine, not intendly. And my friend knows how I feel straight away. The best way that my friend suggested was to TELL HIM right at his face. Tell HIM how I feel. I do not wish to suffer anymore. BUT I can't do it. I do not have the courage to do so.

The only way is to forget, FORGET AND FORGET.

My special friend also suffer alot, but he would fight his way through. And each time STRONGER than the other. I admire how he is able to get over the problem so calm and steadily.

But I'm different from him, I do not have the courage to tell the truth and I do not like to hear the facts. But the truth is, HE don't give a damn at all. Just like what my friend has said, "He don't even bother 'bout you. I'm sorry to say that, but this is a fact. HE DON'T GIVE A DAMN 'BOUT YOU" And I totally agreed with him. So I'm not gonna waste my tears on HIM. It's plain stupid.

I really have to thank my friend. I feel much better now. It's really nice knowing you.